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nd he saith unto them, Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith? Then he arose, and rebuked the winds and the sea; and there was a great calm. Matthew 8:26It doesn't look good for our Daisy dog. Monday, Max and I took her to the Vet. She has been constantly twitching on one side of her body, lifeless and in pain. We stayed at the Vet office for almost two hours while they x-rayed, took blood and called another Vet in for a consult. Their diagnosis, "A lesion on the brain or some kind of Neurological disease." The Vet wants to send some of her blood off to a special lab and check for a Tick illness that can sometimes cause these symptoms but Daisy has been on Tick/Flea preventive her entire life so this is really a shot in the dark. The test results will be back in a week. In the meantime the Vet is cautious that we don't get our hopes up. He believes that we should euthanize Daisy by the end of the week and I agree. Max is hanging on the Vet's every word.
On the way home I ask Max how he is feeling. He looks directly at me and says, "God will heal her, Daisy will be fine." My heart sinks. I am sad. I think to myself, "not only am I going to have to explain Max's first lesson of death but now I am going to have to explain why God did not heal his dog. Great, a double whammy. My son's first lesson on faith and disappointment. Growing up sucks."
For two days I have carried this whimpering dog around in a blanket. She can't jump or climb. Her tail remains tucked. She is trembling constantly. She cries out in pain. For two days I have talked sweetly to her, knowing her days are numbered. I keep telling her what a good dog she has been. I say, "good dog", over and over again. I cry.
Today, Daisy is a different dog. She jumped on the bed, she jumped off the bed. The trembling is barely noticeable and non-existent at times. I caught her rolling on her back in the sunshine. Is she cured? Is this temporary? Are the medicines working? We still do not have the blood work results but the doctor is treating her as if she was positive. He said, "At this point we have nothing to lose." I am cautiously optimistic.
This afternoon, Max comes in from school. The first thing he does is ask about Daisy and go straight to her. I tell him that she is having an amazing day and appears to be well. Max looks directly at me and says, "I told you so."
Wow, faith. Pure untainted faith. What do you think God has been saying to me?
He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20
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